The apology you deserved

The apology you deserved infinity and beyond

I apologize for adding another burden to your heart.

I lost myself in getting through my sadness and didn't appreciate your time.

I believed that your love would deliver me from my own self.

Rather, when I came to the realisation that commitment was scary,

I disappeared without a trace.

I pushed you away because I felt like I was being helpful, but it was the most self-centered thing I ever did.

I am a living example of how strangely depression reveals its feelings to those closest to you.

I was too scared to tell you the truth, even though I never meant to hurt you.

I had to let you go so I could heal on my own.

Even if we weren't meant to be,

I still think that we were supposed to happen.

Even if you have to sift through the hurt of a bitter ending in order to reach the better memories, love may still be beautiful, in my opinion.

I'm glad your path crossed with mine, and that, once upon a time, we looked at one another like our eyes held the answers to everything.

I know that what we had was real, even though it may take some time for me to recover.

We transformed each other's hearts, and you made a lasting impression on me.

Despite all that lies between us now, I hope you know that a part of me will always be yearning for you.