I used to be such a fun ,spontaneous and bubbly person but I genuinely lost that side of myself long ago sad to say but it was like seeing a colorful picture go grey and that was definitely me. I lost my faith but I didn't blame anyone I blamed myself because I let myself go, I lost my voice, my ability to express my feelings and things that upset me I felt like I was in a dark hole and that what we call depression.
During my time pain i took a step back and allowed myself to understand why these emotions and why the hurt and why am i so hard on myself and why all the dark thoughts I then came to a realization that for me to heal I need to love myself I need to surround myself with healing energy and that's where it all changed I called upon God first and seeked help. It was hard because i hadn't prayed for months but i did it and that helped with rebuilding my confidence and strength and my relationship with God.
I'm not going to lie being an overthinker doesn't make it easy and I still struggle with alot of set back and i fight going to that space all the time but im so thankful to my friends because the smile and laughs i get from them i dont think they understand how much that heals me.
I just want people who go through these things to talk about it and not be ashamed . But also I want them to know they shouldnt allow themselves to being a dark space for a long time cause life doesn't wait for you to pick up your feet it doesn't you have to do it on your own, I always tell myself that happiness starts within and you shouldn't see the worst in everything while doing what make you feel peace.
Spread as much love as possible and leave some for yourself it's also okay to take steps back and regroup but always be kind to yourself.
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