For what seems to have been my whole life, I’ve always struggled with having a big heart. I’ve probably called Miso crying a million times over the same thing and questioned God to why He’d give me people who couldn’t love me as much as I love them. Hi, my name is Siyamthanda and I wear my heart on my sleeve, always. I think I only started to understand myself better when I was trying to understand God and His word. Navigating myself was also meant to be guided by my discoveries during my course of choosing God for a change. I went to the one place where I was going to be chosen too, where I was going to be loved back and to the one person who wouldn’t leave me, ever. I need you to know only God can be God for you, everything else is far too complicated, too inconsistent, too fragile, too temporary, too incompetent and too human. I think I’ve accepted a lot of things, that maybe I have a big heart to change some people and truly speaking the world needs more considerate, genuine people willing to love until their last breath. Life is peaceful, I think I’m exactly where I should be and I love the people around me every chance I get because we don’t know what tomorrow holds. Romantic relationships? A woman’s heart should be so hidden in God that a man has to seek Him just to find her. Don’t forget, God is love (1 John 4:8)and love is kind (1 Corinthians 13:4-7). I leave you with one question though, do you think it’s possible that some people are born to give more love than they will ever get back in return?
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