Life Update...

The last few months have been an emotional rollercoaster that has brought me to both extremes of happiness and sadness. It's been a period of very great personal and professional development. I've challenged myself to the limit, I’ve taken on obstacles head on like the bad b**** that I am, and come out stronger than before, since then naming myself Misokuhle Senezelo Nonjabulo “Resilience” Zondi, Resilient because I am my mothers daughter.

But there have been difficulties along the way. Lost friendships have been an obvious example of life's bittersweet reality. Even though I still love and respect these individuals, life has a way of forcing you to part ways with people prematurely (mind you I’m saying that because I was genuinely not ready for some friendship breakups). Although it's been a difficult experience, I've learned how important it is to let go and treasure the memories and I’m a hoarder of memories if I do say so myself.

Romantic love occasionally enters our lives subtly, filling gaps we weren't aware existed. I fell in love this year too, truly, beautiful and experienced all the emotions that inspire me to write poetry. Life had other plans though and it didn't work out. What was happiness, highs and lows, and heartbreaking farewells, through that I'm thankful that I'm still learning to let go of the hope I had for us. Because love shows us what is possible, even if it doesn't last. As we’re just walking each other home and love is the hope that anchors our souls.

 

Despite the pain, new relationships have grown. I've discovered that I get attracted to new people and develop happy, fulfilling relationships with them. These connections have provided access to fresh points, adventures, and experiences. I've been able to live life to the fullest and fulfil long-held passions/dreams.

However, there is still a persistent feeling of something missing despite all the improvements I’ve made along the way. A gap, a missing puzzle piece. It's a confusing tingle that serves as a reminder that even when I am happy, there may be a desire for something more not to sound ungrateful or anything but that’s just the reality of life.

I am appreciative of the experiences treasured, the friendships formed, and the lessons learnt as I cross this difficult emotionally taxing territory for a lack of better words. I'm holding out hope that the final piece will fit into the puzzle that is my life sooner or later.

 

Till next time

xoxo