I'm yet to find myself.

right when you think you've found yourself ;

you've found what makes you you ,

suddenly you're not so sure anymore .

it all starts slipping away from you like the grains of sand do through your hands. 

you know one minute it's " this is me " ; 

" this is my vibe " ; 

" this is what makes me me " ;

but ... then you start thinking is it really ? 

i am constantly navigating through faith , relationships , education etc etc but the hardest on-going navigation has to be the one where I am the destination.

when will I get there ?

am I even doing it right?

who can show me how it's done? 

it's a journey I need to take alone but how ?

I'm constantly questioning what happened to me but then again I'm allowed to make mistakes , grow out of certain things and people but until when ?

when does it all come together and I finally find a home in me ?

this is navigating me by myself ,

keep me anonymous as i too don't know who I am .