Once you’ve experienced deep grief - it changes you. For me, this was hard to accept because a lot of the positive changes were directly related to having experienced excruciating pain. Even if, on the surface, I can accept that my dad's death changed me without enjoying it, it is still hard for me to accept these changes when I link them to his death. The idea of how sad it is that my dad isn't able to meet this new me. I think he would have admired how much I've changed since his passing, mainly because his death reintroduced me to Him - God. Although it breaks my heart that it took me losing my father to be re-introduced to my Father, I still find peace (that surpasses all understanding) in His kind love - 1 Corinthians 13:4.
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